Monday, May 19, 2014

23rd Ulang Tahun


My birthday was never a big priority…until now. I recently discovered that I have had some pretty epic birthdays. As a result, I have this obsessive need to outdo the previous birthday. Here’s a detailed account of my best ulang tahuns.

Age 19- I traveled to Peru with my sisters, Mukti and Priti. My oldest sister gave birth to my niece Sophia back home in America. Later that night, we went to a restaurant on the Pacific Ocean in Lima, Peru. The restaurant was literally on stilts above water. My waiter gave me a private tour of the wine cellar.

Age 20- I celebrated Sophia’s first birthday in New York City. Afterwards, the adults went bar hopping to celebrate my birthday. I remember flirting with a really cute Canadian the entire night. I wonder where he is now…

Age 21- I drank with my good friends E.J., Amanda, Erin, Dave, and Sam after hiking 100 miles in Southern China. We followed the Long March trail that began Chairman Mao Zedon’s ascent to power. We ended in Yangshao after a 2-week journey. A day later, I flew to London to visit my then-boyfriend Peter. We walked to Hyde Park and ate Indian food.

Age 22- I packed up my dorm room in Washington, D.C. four days after graduating from American University. I was nominated to be a Peace Corps Volunteer but had yet to receive my country assignment. My future was open and full of hope. I didn’t say goodbye to my friends in D.C. Instead I said, “See you later.” It was a bittersweet birthday.

 Age 23- This year was...an interesting birthday. The day before, the Peace Corps announced our permanent sites. The staff created a large chalk drawing of East and West Java outside our training office. They called us up individually and told us where to go on the map. When I was called up, I asked the Peace Corps Country Director, “Sheila, can I hug you?” To my surprise, she said yes. I walked over to the East Java chalk drawing with a smile.

That smile was quickly wiped off my face when I looked down at the drawing beneath my feet. I felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness. I realized I am going to be alone in a desa somewhere in the middle of Indonesia for 2 years. I became dizzy, but I forced myself to smile. Later that night, all the Peace Corps trainees went out for a few drinks to celebrate/cry.

I was one of the criers.

Moving on from that embarrassing moment...

The next day (my actual birthday), I kept a low profile. I went shopping with my friend Lindsey in the nearby city of Malang. I was proud of myself for getting to the mall without having to ask for directions. That evening, I went to a traditional Indonesian festival with my friends Terceira and Cady. The stadium was very crowded. We decided to leave early, but I bought myself a balloon before heading home. When I got home, my host family wished me a happy birthday. I watched Midnight in Paris before heading to bed.

While this birthday was low-key, I still put it under the Epic category. I mean…how many people can say they spent their 23rd birthday in Indonesia?    

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Change the World


Pre-Service Training life is rough. I’m constantly tired. I feel like I’m in a fishbowl. I spend all day every day with the same 6 trainees. Every local knows where I am, where I’m going, who I’m with.  I’m walking on eggshells with my host family. I don’t want to offend them, yet I can’t hide who I am. For example, it took me two weeks just to muster up the courage to eat with my left hand. I stopped eating rice. I often find that I’m too assertive. I’m not trying hard enough to integrate.

Before coming here, I read blogs, asked volunteers questions, and emailed my recruiter biweekly. I thought I was prepared, but I didn’t realize how challenging this 2-year journey is. It’s sometimes difficult to remember why I joined the Peace Corps in the first place. Every volunteer joins for his/her own reasons. What are mine?

I remember very well my last few minutes with my brother-in-law, Rahul. He dropped me off at the Path Station in New Jersey, gave me a hug, and said, “Go change the world.” I’ve been thinking about this moment for the entirety of my Peace Corps training.

Change the world. How do I do that? Where do I start? Who do I change? When will I see results? I mean…I’m 22 years old. I graduated college in May 2013. In my year off, I sat around my house and read I am Malala. I went to Europe for a hot second. I shoveled a lot of snow. I haven’t even made a student loan payment, yet Rahul suddenly expects me to change the world!? This is a lot of responsibility to put on someone who still watches Spongebob Squarepants.

The longer I stay in Indonesia, the more I realize that I didn’t join the Peace Corps to change the world. I recognize that I am only 22. I’m so young. I have a lot to learn from others. I need to mature by figuring out how I can solve my own issues. I need to grow. I need to listen to the people around me. I need to stop being in my own head and observe. Most of all, I need to stop thinking that my way is best. Not everyone needs to take my path in life in order to be a good person. I want to challenge myself and I want others to challenge my opinions. 

I didn’t join the Peace Corps to change the world. I joined the Peace Corps to understand it.   

Thursday, May 1, 2014

I Want a Teeth Party


I talk a lot. I mean…a lot. In high school I frequently got detentions for speaking during class (sorry, Ms. Lauden).  Even on the street, I can’t help myself from saying hello to everyone. If I see a familiar face, they deserve a conversation.

So it’s no surprise that I talk a lot in Indonesia. However, my language skills aren’t great yet. I’ve made a few mistakes (and by “few” and I mean “thousands”). Here are some examples:

What I meant to say: “I want to buy toothpaste.”
What I actually said: “I want a teeth party.”

What I meant to say: “I want to be a university professor.”
What I actually said: “I want to be a taxi cab driver.”

*Holding a photo*
What I meant to say: “This is my brother-in-law. This is my sister. They have a child together named Sophia.”
What I actually said: “This is my brother. This is my sister. They have a child together named Sophia”

What I meant to say: “This photo was taken in Peru.”
What I actually said: “This photo was taken in new.”

What I meant to say: “I will teach English.”
What I actually said: “I will die English.”

What I meant to say: “I need to get a cellphone.”
What I actually said: “I need to get a car.”

What I meant to say: “This a cute cat.”
What I actually said: “This is a handsome yellow.”

Despite all my mistakes, Bahasa Indonesia has been a fun language to learn. The only difficult thing about it is the pronunciation. Some sounds are very nasal, such as the –ang and –eng sound.  If you have a hard time thinking about what it sounds like, imagine Janice from Friends speaking in a foreign tongue. Her high pitch and nasal tone would fit in perfectly here in Java.